As 2011 ended and as we plough through the beginning of 2012, I sit in fear of how fast time is flying by. I find myself again in a deep thought process wondering what I have achieved (if anything) and where the hell am I going (in this life journey).
The end of a year and start of another is no doubt a time for reflection. Another depressing Christmas period followed by the anti-climax of a New Year countdown that is supposed to symbolise a fresh start. Gimme a break.
New Years resolutions? Don’t bother with the added pressure, we already commit to more than we have time for, so leave the gut in tact and erase the thought of joining the gym, trust me, you’ll save a lot of money.
Challenges seem to find their way into my life on a regular basis. By challenges I could mean problems, I could also mean opportunities. I guess that’s all based on outlook.
I always find myself saying to people that ‘time is the most important thing in my life’. As if I am the King of productivity and make the most out of every second. That would be an understatement. In all honesty, at the moment; time to reflect is what I seem to have a lot of.
For a long time, my head was in so many places, so many projects and my energy was spread between a variety of commitments. I didn’t really have a clue how to time manage and found myself obviously, spread thin. I was always looking for the next leap, the next jump, more excitement, more opportunities, more networks and never found contentment. Yes, this is both frustrating and demoralising.
Knowing these weaknesses, we can have an idea of how to approach the next steps. For me, 2012 will be the year of both commitment and contentment. It’s time to be appreciative of what I have. Time to understand what I have achieved so far and what I can accomplish if I put my mind to it. Time to focus on the things that I have in front of my eyes and to stop reaching out to try and grab what I can’t have. Time to realise that I made certain decisions for a reason and have to make the most of the present. Time to realise that sometimes bad things do happen. But there’s nothing you can do about them, so why worry. Hakuna Matata!
I was recently told that the reason I ask so many questions and over think is because I am an Aquarius. Maybe this is true, maybe not, but I know in 2011 I exhausted myself trying to figure this out.
All I now know is, if I give the best with the tools that I have and dedicate the right amount of time each commitment; I know I will have done my best. And I guess that’s ok. And maybe for once I’ll be happy with that.
I’m just a little bit caught in the middle
Life is a maze and love is a riddle
I don’t know where to go I can’t do it alone I’ve tried
And I don’t know why
I am just a little girl lost in the moment
I’m so scared but I don’t show it
I can’t figure it out
It’s bringing me down I know
I’ve got to let it go
And just enjoy the show
Lenka – The Show